Sometimes I honestly wish i never heard of the word’s……..

Sometimes I honestly wish i never heard of the word's

  • Fibromyalgia
  • Fibro Fog
  • CRPS Type II
  • Rheumatoid Arthritis
  • Diabetes Type 2
  • Paget's Disease.

If I didnt then I would be living a normal life, doing normal things, and just outright enjoying everything. I would love to have just 1 day, 1 full day of not having to deal with any of it. just to remember what it feels like to be normal again.

I could do work to my house, without begging my body to make it through this day, so I can do more the next.  I could work in my yard, and garden, without praying i can make it through this day. and finish before my body shuts down again.  I could take walks, or ride a bike, go camping, make plans for the days and weeks to come, without having to cancel those plans.

Some think its a all in my head thing, some think I just dont want to do it. others just don't care to hear about it. but if they had just 1 half a day with exactly what i deal with on a ongoing basis,  then maybe they would understand, and instead of ridicule, or the words "thats bullshit" come out of their mouths or in their heads thinking of it. a little more comfort would be offered, and a little more understanding would be given.  

The Daily hell is always there for me, its real, the uncertainly from day to day of how will I feel?, what will I be able to do? can I do just a little bit and finish a project? that is what i deal with each day. 

I honestly wish i never heard of the word's……………